We all know the film lyrics are for an imaginary situation, yet it manages to tug our heart strings once in a while. Some lyrics become too personal for us that we start feeling as if they are written for us. Some lyrics make us laugh, fill the heart with happiness and even make us cry. Todays blog is about one such instance. Last week I was on some deep thinking & a slight depression when this song was playing on. Suddenly I the lyrics caught my fancy and I felt an mosit eye. The song in the question is "Tu meri zindagi hai" from the film Aashiqui (1989). Infact I am a sucker for film lyrics especially that have an underlying current of pathos. I have been hearing this song from Aashiqui since my 8th standard and this is the first time I was moved to tears. The lines that made me cry is:-

"We keep seeing something/someone again and again for years but one sudden moment we feel them more beautiful and attractive that we fall in love as if we see it/them for the first time.. This I wrote earlier for a 'B' - Bhumika Chawla and now repeating the same for an another 'B' - Bangalore. I had been to Bangalore on many instances during my job search as well as for trainings & POC developments. Even though I liked this place, I never took it seriously. But this summer when I was there for an official visit, I realised that I was getting the warm vibes there normally I receive from Coimbatore, a place very close to my heart. To compound the effect, the office, team members and even my roomie in Guest house are all very sweet. Now I am in love with Bangalore and am seriously thinking of moving to this city. The politically motivated agressions towards TN and untoward incidents during such agitations is the only factor that makes me rethink my decision.

I always believed that you are most happiest soul in the world. I always looked up to you for the vivaciousness and vibrancy. Peri rightly told that you are a band of frequency, who can get along with people of any wavelength. When I heard your suicide news today (Gulf News, thatstamil), it took a long time for me to sink in the truth that you are no more with us. I have been hearing of your depression for past few weeks. Whatever problem that had bugged, you could have spoken/let out. When CM told that he is scared that you might take some extreme steps, I just shrugged it off. But today I am feeble enough to face the reality. You influenced me in many ways. It was because of you I was able to reinvent myself with confidence, your ardent devotion of Illayaraja's songs, Tamil literature had rubbed on me. I will never be able to forget you in my lifetime. Vaithy, we all loved you a lot, yet you didn't feel like sharing your trouble with us? You spread happiness in many of our lives but unfortunately you didn't let us do the same in you. May your soul rest in peace.

A couple of days back when I met my ex-boss CM, while parting I mustered courage to ask him "Just give me a hug" and he did. I love him a lot & it was an overwhelming feeling that left me speechless for a while. A hug has such a power expressing more what thousand of words can do. When I saw Munnabhai MBBS for the first time, I was really surprised that Munna is practicing what I believed - hugging. May be I grew up watching Hindi movies, hugging the friends while meeting after a long time, else while parting came natural to me. Also being an introvert I felt more comfortable with action than words. I feel we southies are having some inhibitions in expressing our affection physically in public like holding hands, hugging, touching elders feet etc. Worse is that many times hugging is misunderstood here in Tamilnadu.

அட்டக்கட்டிக்கு வந்தாலே கதாநாயகிகளுக்கு sound collection மீது ஒரு ஈடுபாடு வந்துவிடும் போல. "பிரிவோம் சந்திப்போம்" படத்தில் தனிமை தாங்காமல் சினேகா தன்னை சுற்றிய சப்தங்களை பதிவு செய்கிறார். பல வருடங்களுக்கு முன்பு டி.டி-1-ல் வந்த "ரயில் சினேகம்" நாடகத்தில் கதாநாயகி இதையே செய்கிறாள், அதுவும் அதே அட்டக்கட்டியில். நான் 7-வது படிக்கும் போது டி.டி-1 ல் கே. பாலசந்தர் இயக்கிய "ரயில் சினேகம்" 13 - வார தொடராக ஒளிபரப்பானது. அப்போது அந்த நாடகத்தை புரிந்து கொள்ளும் வயது இல்லை எனக்கு. ஆனால் அதில் வரும் "இந்த வீணைக்கு தெரியாது.." & "ரயில் சினேகம்" ஆகிய பாடல்கள் இன்னும் நினைவில் இருந்தது. ஆனால் சமீபத்தில் அதை முழுதாக பார்க்கும் வாய்ப்பு கிடைத்தது. வழக்கம் போல சிக்கலான உறவுமுறைகளை கையாண்டிருக்கிறார்

Sometimes we come across some intresting sights and I managed to capture them by my mobile.

The vehicle numbers (6972 & 7972) are intresting in this case and I found it in the parking lot of Ascendas IT Park, Chennai.

For past few days, I am very seriously toying an idea to adopt a baby girl. My apprehensions about a marriage has nothing to do with this. Marriage may happen or not because I have decided to harden my stand about the criteria of bride and I am not going to buckle to the peer pressures. I don't want any compromises or 'work later on' in my spouse. But I can't wait to be a father soon as I feel that I can be a good father. I am not doing a favour to a baby girl by adopting her instead she is going to favour me by bringing a wholeness to my life. Ofcourse this process will take some time but I have already started keeping some money aside for baby's account, and definitely this adoption should happen within an year or two.

Recently I came across this book called "Neengal Yaar?" (who are you?) by Mr. Soma. Valliappan. It was a book that categorises people into 9 groups based on their attitude and personality. To identify their personality types he had given a set of questionnaire at the annexure. This is a really useful book. Under my personality type I had been given some characteristics which I found surprisingly true to a large extent. Of one of the traits, 'a mild jealousy' was listed, which I agree and acknowledge. Today's blog is all about the jealousiness I had / have in my life. I always felt jealous when I didn't get something I longed for but it lands in somebody else from my circle's lap. Thankfully barring one instance, the jealousy trait had never been problematic.

Today is my last day with Technosoft. No matter wherever I go, Technosoft will always be special because it gave me the entry into IT. If it was not my dear friend Prabhu Shankar, ex-boss Mr. Chandrasekar and Technosoft, I would have returned back to Dubai with a sales in job last March. Technosoft is where I learnt SAP IS-Retail, I got to have a confidant and well wisher in Prabhu Shankar. In fact I would love to have Prabhu Shankar along with me as long as possible in my life (careerwise and as a friend) and I pray that it should happen soon in future. This one year stint in Technosoft had taught me some valuable lessons in career about the efforts, presence being made felt and I must keep following them through out. I'll always be indebted to Technosoft (also Prabhu Shankar and Mr. Chandrashekar) for giving me a break into SAP. My sincere thanks to everybody here for bearing with me. Ofcourse I’ll be in touch but this is just an acknowledgement of my feelings towards them.

Sometimes good things come with an expiry date... Recently he got in touch with me through a social networking site. He complimented my handicrafts, wanted to know more about me. He kept mailing but I was very apprehensive whether he too turns out to be those 'gay' type who hounds the single introvert men profiles. I replied reluctantly, but when I got to know more, I found him a sweet personified. He just smoothened the rough edges I got from my past broken friendships. After a long time I got a friend who has no inhibitions to hold my hands in the public, giggle like a teenager, comically animated... just like me. Hitch is that he is leaving India by 6th June, 2008 on H1 Visa... I don't want to fret about the short lived friendship but am gonna cherish every moment of it... I just acknowledge this lively friendship, the difference he made in me, reinventing the pleasure of looking forward for somebody in evenings, dining together & grinning wide, making my mobile ringtones sound musical... All again.