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வாழ்க்கையிலே எது கற்றுக்கொண்டேனோ இல்லையோ இஷ்டத்துக்கு அறிக்கை விடக்கூடாது என்பதை தெளிவாக கற்றுக்கொண்டேன். சிறிய வயதிலிருந்தே எனக்கு எதை பற்றியும் ஒரு திடமான அபிப்பிராயம் உண்டு. அது சரியா தவறா என்று ஆராயாமலேயே அதன் அடிப்படையில் அறிக்கைகள் விடுவது உண்டு. ஆனால் கடவுள் "மகனே! நீ ரொம்ப பேசிட்டே.." என்று எதை நான் செய்யமாட்டேன் என்று மார்தட்டிக்கொண்டேனோ அதை வேறு வழியில்லாமல் செய்யவைத்துவிடுவார். பல அறிக்கைகளை இப்போது என்னால் சொல்ல முடியாது (சுயமரியாதை தடுக்கிறது) ஆனால் சொல்லக்கூடியவை ஒரு சில... உதாரணத்துக்கு - "எத்தனை கோடி கொடுத்தாலும் சென்னையில் வேலை செய்வதைகாட்டிலும் அபுதாபியிலோ இல்லை கோவையிலோ தெருவில் பிச்சை எடுப்பேன்...." ஆனால் விதி வேறுவிதமாக விளையாடியது. இப்போது நான் 2 ஆண்டுகளாக சென்னைவாசி. மனதுக்கு பிடிக்காமல் போனாலும் சமரசம் செய்துக்கொள்ளும் திறன் இல்லாததால் எப்போடா இந்த ஊரை விட்டு போவோம் என்று ஒவ்வொரு நாளும் பொழுதை ஓட்டுவது ரொம்ப கடினம். இது கூட பரவாயில்லை ஒரு நாள் பொறுமை எல்லை கடந்தால் வேலையை விட்டுவிட்டு ஊரை விட்டு ஓடிப்போய்விடலாம், ஆனால் கல்யானத்திலிருந்து..?

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I always believed that you are most happiest soul in the world. I always looked up to you for the vivaciousness and vibrancy. Peri rightly told that you are a band of frequency, who can get along with people of any wavelength. When I heard your suicide news today (Gulf News, thatstamil), it took a long time for me to sink in the truth that you are no more with us. I have been hearing of your depression for past few weeks. Whatever problem that had bugged, you could have spoken/let out. When CM told that he is scared that you might take some extreme steps, I just shrugged it off. But today I am feeble enough to face the reality. You influenced me in many ways. It was because of you I was able to reinvent myself with confidence, your ardent devotion of Illayaraja's songs, Tamil literature had rubbed on me. I will never be able to forget you in my lifetime. Vaithy, we all loved you a lot, yet you didn't feel like sharing your trouble with us? You spread happiness in many of our lives but unfortunately you didn't let us do the same in you. May your soul rest in peace.

{mosimage}Finally I have decided to sever my ties with cousin sister Shenbaga and my uncle. This came close to the heels of the problems being escalated to parent's level. The bone of content is my closeness to my niece & their daughter Ammu. Like I have mentioned in my previous blogs, she was the girl simplicity personified. She didn't get the needed affection from her parents and her brother. She settled with where she got them - her friend's circle. May be I understood her problem, I always had been kind to her. Similiarly with Meera, my another niece. Whenever I go to Meera's house in Coimbatore, we (Meera, Uma, Ammu and I) always have a good time and last time on New Year Eve, Ammu gave her long overdue treat - the one for her salary increment.

{mosimage}வெள்ளிக்கிழமை மதியம்... பொதுவாக IT ஊழியர்கள் கும்பல் கட்டி நிதானமாக சாப்பிடும் நாள். என்றும் இல்லாத அதிசயமாக நானும் விச்சுவும் கீழே சாப்பிட போனோம். நான் என்னுடைய டிஃபன் பாக்ஸ் வைத்திருந்ததாலும், விச்சு சாப்பாடு வாங்க போனதாலும் நான் ஒரு lawn ஓர table பிடித்து உட்கார்ந்து காத்திருந்தேன். ஒரு பெண் வந்து 'அந்த table-இல் உட்கார்ந்துக்கொள்ள முடியுமா?' என்று கேட்டாள். நான் அரை மனதோடு எழுந்து அடுத்த table-ல் அமர போனபோது 'இதில் இல்லை அங்கே..' என்று சற்று தொலைவில் கூட்டமாக இருந்த இடத்தில் ஒரு table-ஐ காட்டினாள். எனக்கு ஜிவ்வென்று கோபம் வந்தது. 'வேணும்னா அதை இழுத்து இங்கே போட்டுக்கோங்க..' என்று கோபமாக சொன்னாலும் அந்த இடத்தில் இரண்டு chair-கள் இருந்ததால் அவள் சொன்ன இடத்தில்லேயே சென்று உட்கார்ந்து கொண்டேன். அந்த பெண் அந்த இடத்திலிருந்த தன்னுடைய டிபன் பாக்ஸை எடுத்துகொண்டு 'Sorry for the inconvenience' என்று சொன்னாள். அவள் முகத்தை கூட பார்க்காமல் 'its OK' என்று வெறும் கையசைப்பிலேயே சைகை காண்பித்துவிட்டேன்.

{mosimage}1. These days I prefer Illayaraja in 80's over AR Rahman and Harris Jayraj in Tamil, Nadeem-Shravan over Himesh Reshammiya, Pritam and others in Hindi music.

2. I tend to have an instant dry, lop-sided smile when I see some nice loving and caring photographs, read nice humane things and see people extending love for others.

3. I prefer to stick to & move with only well known friends rather than expanding the friendship circle. I don't even bother to break the ice between strangers or new colleagues and take my own sweet time to get them known.

4. I started believing that only the immediate family can be my soulmates.

{mosimage}Why is the media here so negative?
Why are we in India so embarrassed to recognize our own strengths, our achievements?
We are such a great nation. We have so many amazing success stories but we refuse to acknowledge them. Why?

We are the first in milk production.
We are number one in Remote sensing satellites.
We are the second largest producer of wheat.
We are the second largest producer of rice.

it Co-incidence or surprise, most of my favourite things are in 'C' e.g, Computers, Camera, Cooking, Cinema, Coimbatore are few to name but there is one 'C', which I hate to core, but still couldn't escape it. It is a 'C'ity called 'Chennai'. I had lived in & seen many places, but I never felt that 'C'omfort in Chennai. I tried to recall my days with Chennai, but still couldn't fathom one pleasant / comfortable moment in Chennai. I have just tried to find out various aspects of 'C' in Chennai. I make no bones in admitting that I am very much uncomfortable in Chennai

{mosimage}It had been a long time I have been dreaming an IT career. Ever since computers caught my fancy, I wanted to move to computers. Unfortunately I couldn't make it. Call it my indecisiveness / inability to convince my father to put me in computers, there had been a considerable delay. Despite all these I managed to take my move towards an IT career after 10 years since its inception. I came back to India to start my IT career and despite a promising start, I am still at nowhere. It has been days since my certification and it seriously poses problem. It is not the problem now because I waited about 10 years to make this happen and I can wait for even 10 months. But by problem is something else..

{mosimage}I came across this interesting debate in NDTV recently on a program called "Indian Youth Unplugged". It was just a debate with no conclusions, quite interesting to watch. This blog is my take on the "Indian Parenting". I seriously opine that Indian parenting is truly protective, sometimes over protective than being supportive. I don't mean to say that this is the right / bad way of parenting because I had seen the cases with best & worst of the results. The results depend on how the level of understanding of the parents, to be precise in most of the cases - father. No matter how old any individual is, they are still kids to their parents, but in the eyes of a typical Indian parent even 30 yr old man is a "child". This is the basic reason for Indian parents being over protective.

{mosimage}I always used to say Vaithiyanathan & Bala, my mama (brother-in-law) to start blogging, because these are two guys who are best conversationalists and with beautiful vocabulary, I had ever come across. Not only these two but also I had come across many more people in my life who see things in different yet intresting perspectives. People who look things in a sensitive as well as different way always have more to say to the world. The more you have to say, more you have to express and more expressive you are, more content you have for your blogs. Thats why I always used to tell my friends "YOU SHOULD WRITE BLOGS". Going through my blogs, once Vaithiyanathan asked me whether I had aspirations of becoming a journalist or to run a magazine of my own. What to say?