{mosimage}Today I sighed a relief that all the hype and hooplah that surrounds the Valentine's Day is finally coming to an end. It was really sick to hear the radios and media screaming love all over since February 1st. Whatever might be the story behind the Valentine's Day, my opinion is is that it is fuelled and foddered by the card manufacturers, florists, music companies and jewellary shops to increase their revenues. More numbers of love affairs an individuals have, more merrier those business men.

{mosimages}Sometimes we don't understand how certain things happen. We will be thinking of something / someone from our good old memories and to much of our surprise we would have stumbled on them that day / time. Similiar thing happened to me yesterday. While I was combing my hair this morning accidentally I looked at the calender, it had a caption - "Every journey begins with a single step". Somebody had written and signed with similiar line in my diary on the very first day when they came into my life. She had written in her words as "The secret of getting ahead is... getting started". She is someone special and always close to my heart. Whenever I was in trouble her words soothed me to greater extent. She had more faith in my capabilities... much more than what I had in myself. Physically she was around me for three-four months only, a crazy goose who'll drop just a line as a reply for 10-20 mails I had sent, but whenever I was in trouble she comes reaches out to me without any invitation to bail me out. Yesterday evening I was terribly frustrated and came to room with a headache, to much of my surprise that I got excited, I received SMS messages from her after a lo.....ng time. Sometimes life is really beautiful.

{mosimage}I think I had touched this topic previously but this starts from where the previous blog ended. We all admit that man is a social animal and we can't exist in vaccuum. That means we need others existence to survive, rejuvinate ourselves and populate, but the happiness lies within ouselves. But I believe in due course of time the concept of "social" has taken different form that completely overshadowed the felicity of loneliness. I am proud that I am one of the very few people who enjoy the loneliness among those people who claim that they'll go mad if being alone.

A Foreword: {mosimage}This is not a music review blog. I downloaded the songs of Thambi for only one reason - Vidyasagar. I didn't notice the lyrics for 1-2 times, then suddenly the line "vendaikayin kaambai killi..." caught me because it was novel. Then I heard the whole song for its lyrics. There had been so many nostalgic songs, but this one was with very simple lyrics that everybody could identify with it. Literally it shook me, because most of the lines have happened with me. Not only me, anybody who were from small town / village would have experienced these things. Those lines evoked thousands of memories.

2005 has finally bid a good bye and 2006 has started. Admitted 2006 was a shaky start at my workplace, hope it doesn't augur the way things will happen the coming days.

2005 had so many sweet memories and terrible moments, but when I look back I remember with fondness. 2005 had me in all ways - responsible and wayward, happy and gloomy yet there was a change in personality.

There was an auspicious event in our family which we were anticipating for a while - my sister's marriage. I was never a responsible brother or a dutiful son, but I am more than happy to help my parents atleast financially in the marriage. That way 2005 was a memorable one.

{mosimage}i) People say that they booze whenever they are happy or sad, whenever they are alone or whenever they are with their friends. When you are happy, you should enjoy your happiness fully and when you are sad you must take in the situation completely in senses and think of what to do further. If you booze, you'll lose your senses and how can you enjoy the happiness completely or empathise with the sad situation to the core? Boozing to celebrate joy or mitigate sadness is sheer escapism, an act of cowardice, inability to enjoy the essense of life, nothing else.

{mosimage}As usual Jacy gave me a flop movie VCD for weekend viewing - "Koi Aap Saa.." The initial scenes looked colourful and I sneak previewed the climax and decided to go ahead. It was more like my most favourite movie "Niram / Nuvve Kaavali / Piriyatha Varam vendum", I decided to go ahead, until that rape scene came. The heroine is raped by her fiancee's friend and for some reasons ( I didn't watch it) she delivers that child. I found that concept sick and stopped the movie forever. Infact I have decided never ever in my life to sit for a movie with a rape scene when I was terribly disturbed for a week after seeing "Damini / Priyanka" which revolved around the brutal rape incident.

{mosimage}Sometimes back in our office, this was a topic for discussion. The wide spread conclusion that came as the meaning for this phrase was - to be idle and leave everything to fate. I tend to disagree this interpretation. My take on this statement is that you should accept the way things happen rather than expecting it to have happened otherwise. This is the context what I took this statement and following it eversince I read it somewhere for the first time.

There goes a saying that there is a very thin red line between love and hate and at any moment the line can be crossed anyway. Once again I am drawing references from the incidents from my personal circle as well as my own experiences. When the heart wants, it just wants. No reasons or rationalisation needed. It just makes all efforts relentlessly to achieve what it wants. More far the subject runs away, more intense the passion grows. And finally reaches a thresh hold point where things cannot be proceeded further, the thin red line appears. All the love turns into hatred. As intense the love was the hatred also gains the same intensity.

{mosimage}Yesterday while having my lunch I was going through previous day's "Dina Thanthi" paper. There was an advt for a Madhavan movie "Arya". Intha heroine-ai engo paathirukome... Aiyyada! Ithu "Swapnakoodu" Bhavana alle.... 2 - 3 varushathukku munnadi naan enakku Malayala figure-nga mattum thaan pudikkumnu sonnappo ellam nakkala sirichanga.... ippo engengu kaaninum Malayala figure mayamada... (My)Meera, Asin, Nayantara, Gopika, Bhavana, Nandhana.... Malayalathile innum yaar miccham irukkangannu theriyalaiye.... munnadi ellam Tamil padamnaale malayala figurenga ellam pammum... (Manju Warrier, Samyukta Varma, Kavya Madhavan ellam Tamil padathule nadikka matteinnu pidivatham pidichavanga)... aana ippo ellam "thuninju" oru mudivoda thaan varuthunga. Malayalathile intha poonaiyum paal kudikkumannu kekkura maathiri iruntha Nayantara, Palakkad station thaandina udane dress ellam kazhatti pottudra pola...... Pora pokka paathaa enakku "exclusivity" kidaikka naan Bhojpuri, Konkani language figure-ingalai thaan thedanum pola. En pozhappu ippadi aayiducchu...