{mosimage}I should have felt happy when I heard about Rajesh's marriage. Infact I have been telling him for an year that it is a high time that he should get married. But by the time I heard about the news of his marriage, even though I was excited when he called me to say the news, a sense of gloom overloomed it. I admit I like Rajesh immensly, whom I fondly nicknamed as Kutty (not Malayali Kutty, "tamil" Kutty as he is very short and boyish) very much and have lot of sweet memories with him in my room in Abu Dhabi. Now it is unsaid but understood that he will be moving out of the room to some flat. He might even forget me soon in the bliss of a marriage. Abu Dhabi is too small and if destined, sometimes we might bump into each other at some malls, thats all.

{mosimage}You might have come across many people in your life but on retrospect you realise that one particular name might be coming again and again in the form of many individuals for longer part of your life. In my case it was "B..A..L..A..", not directly as Bala, but as the shorter name. Recently when I went to the SAP classes, the guy sitting next to me was Bala @ Balasubramanium. On the evening of the second day of the class, I had a problem with my mobile recharging, I called BSNL Call center, the Customer Support Assistant who answered my queries was... again some "Bala". I was zapped

{mosimage}A news that disturbed me a lot was the rape of a spastic 21 yr old girl, who is also deaf & dumb, in Tutucorin. She was dwelling on the road side and feeding on the alms from the devotees. She had been raped and is pregnant but the irony is that she is not in a position to realise what had happened to her. Someone had filed a case in court for her abortion. The court had approved it and asked to put her in a orphanage. I lost 3-4 days sleep over this matter. I asked my mother whether we can adopt that girl. My mother said that she is not ready because of the legal complications involved and told me to take it easy because she had seen many such cases earlier. What kind of people we are? Why we turned so brutal that we are indifferent towards the injustice of underpriviliged? Will we react the same way if it happens to our family member?

I was really shocked to see my once fave actor Arvindswamy's marriage falling apart. Still more shocking was that it was attributed to his affair with his secretary. He was not in showbiz to get infactuated to some glamourous co-star, that's what makes this case unique. When he was a star I remember Manisha and Madhuri stating that their parents will be thrilled if they choose sophisticated and well behaved gentleman like Arvindswamy as their groom, but his current state of things show that every relationship / marriage undergoes a point of fatigue. If the protagonists manage to overcome this phase, then they are bound to rebound in a stronger way.

{mosimage}My friend SMSed me that she had changed her religion. Admitted she is bit a religious girl and she was God fearing. Initially I thought she was joking, but then I learnt that she was really serious and had got converted to another religion. When I called her she started giving a lecture about her new religion and she said that all these time she had been doing wrong being in the religion she was before. What to say, it is her personal opinion, but one thing what I can't understand is "Do religion need to be taken so seriously in a human life?" I personally believe that there is a super natural force above us and there is no denial about it.

{mosimage}Last week a news in "Gulf News" was disturbing me a lot. It dealt with the rising trend in the suicide of Indian workers (54 in 2003 to 85 in 2005) and Indian workers form the majority of suicide attemps. Even shocking was the bias of the report that it tried to project that Indians attempt suicide wherever they are, thus washing off the hands against the exploitations here in UAE. Every suicide victim has a wrenching & moving story behind them, some come here for repaying the debts, some for the dowry of their sisters). Many pay downpayment of about Rs. 1 lakhs to the agents to land in the job that fetches Dhs. 750~800 (approx INR. 8500 ~ 10,000) with false promises of overtime jobs.

{mosimage}Many times in our life we develop a strong liking towards a particular individual or thing, but we don't get them. Some of us become sarcastic towards it in the name of "Once bitten, twice shy". But there are some people for whom those incidents couldn't make any dent in their personalities. They believe in "Life just goes on..." I read one of the interviews of Sushmita Sen few years back. (I love the interviews of Tabu & Sushmita Sen as they give really sensible quotes unlike other dumb starlets). It was the time when she had broke up with her then boy friend - Vikram Bhatt. The question in the interview was that she was claiming that even though she & Vikram had broke up, he was her good friend, was it possible?

{mosimage}Today I sighed a relief that all the hype and hooplah that surrounds the Valentine's Day is finally coming to an end. It was really sick to hear the radios and media screaming love all over since February 1st. Whatever might be the story behind the Valentine's Day, my opinion is is that it is fuelled and foddered by the card manufacturers, florists, music companies and jewellary shops to increase their revenues. More numbers of love affairs an individuals have, more merrier those business men.

{mosimages}Sometimes we don't understand how certain things happen. We will be thinking of something / someone from our good old memories and to much of our surprise we would have stumbled on them that day / time. Similiar thing happened to me yesterday. While I was combing my hair this morning accidentally I looked at the calender, it had a caption - "Every journey begins with a single step". Somebody had written and signed with similiar line in my diary on the very first day when they came into my life. She had written in her words as "The secret of getting ahead is... getting started". She is someone special and always close to my heart. Whenever I was in trouble her words soothed me to greater extent. She had more faith in my capabilities... much more than what I had in myself. Physically she was around me for three-four months only, a crazy goose who'll drop just a line as a reply for 10-20 mails I had sent, but whenever I was in trouble she comes reaches out to me without any invitation to bail me out. Yesterday evening I was terribly frustrated and came to room with a headache, to much of my surprise that I got excited, I received SMS messages from her after a lo.....ng time. Sometimes life is really beautiful.

{mosimage}I think I had touched this topic previously but this starts from where the previous blog ended. We all admit that man is a social animal and we can't exist in vaccuum. That means we need others existence to survive, rejuvinate ourselves and populate, but the happiness lies within ouselves. But I believe in due course of time the concept of "social" has taken different form that completely overshadowed the felicity of loneliness. I am proud that I am one of the very few people who enjoy the loneliness among those people who claim that they'll go mad if being alone.